candyland

today was the last day of school here. ive finished third year and am now on my three month holidays- except that in ireland 15yr old third years have this thing called the jnr cert and its pretty big it sopposed to test what you've learnt over the last three years. im totally freaked out, putting too much pressure on myself and not knowing what to do about it. this year hasn't been the best for me but it hasn't been the worst. my so called ex best friend spread rumours about me in my year that im a satanist just because i wouldn't go to the cinema with her. she nearly destroyed me, she told a teacher who is just about the nosiest person i know and told our chaplin who agreed with me-thankfully. i couldn't believe it, stab me in the back why don't you. ive gotten over it it just really annoys me that people who i consisderd as friends would spread crap about me. but hey life goes on- doesn' it?? 

so ive just signed up to this and i have no friends or anything, but that actually feels kinda good, knowing that im invisible here. know one knows who i am i can be totally me. its nice that none of my real friends know about this and hopefully never will. just to be me, not who i am at home or at school,-just me. i love fallout ijm probably gonna so im probably gonna leave secret messages about me in theese entrys, if you can find them, cool.boy.